I wanted to write about how I've been feeling better.
I feel like I am doing better when it comes to missing friends. I've figured I can go 10 days without talking to/seeing a friend without going crazy. Luckily, Brianne doesn't live too far and I get to see her often. I've settled back into this lifestyle where I can be alone. It doesn't hurt so much. Or maybe I'm just numb, but I hope that isn't it. I don't think it is.
- I don't leave my bed before ten and I have to make myself take the dog for a walk, but once I'm outside, I enjoy it.
- I dance around the living room to Beyonce most days.
- There's still a pang of sadness when I remember that Kelsi won't be up at school next semester.
- I'm constantly realizing how unintentionally selfish I am.
- I get excited about the food I can eat because I'm too poor to buy healthy food up at school.
- There's a list of chores I should do to be more helpful for my mom.
- I am so broke.
- I'm happy having a guitar and piano to myself.
- There's a ton of books that are glaring at me from my dresser, waiting to be read.
- I'm trying to think of ways I can help my family get along better and to discourage anger or unkindness.
- I have this friend that I'm losing interest in and I wish I could change how I feel.
- When it's sunny, I go sit outside with Oliver and we soak it in.
- I am so imperfect.
- I'm trying to appreciate what was, and be better at living in the present.
- I'd like to grow closer to the Lord.
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