Ok. So. I haven't written for awhile. 

But I just want to say that I've been doing well lately. Which is really nice, because I've been having a difficult time this semester, trying to make new friends and find things to throw myself into. 

One of the things I was trying to work on and was praying for inspiration for, was someone that needed some special attention, someone that needed a friend, but I wasn't having a lot of luck. I was feeling really helpless and didn't know what to do.

But this week was really nice, and there were a lot of moments where I knew that I was being looked out for. My issues with anxiety come and go, and at least, when I try to deal with it, I tend to have a "fake it till you make it" approach. Sometimes it makes me wonder what is the truest version of myself, but this week, I felt free - not worrying about looking dumb, not worrying about what I would talk to strangers about. It feels so so great. 

So what I'm thinking is, I just needed to feel what it's like to be alright myself, before I could do anything to help anyone else. I'm excited to try and keep this up and see what happens next.

Also, one of my best friends Tim came home from Hong Kong today, and I'm so so excited for him and his family!!! I can't wait for things to settle down so he can call me sometime.

(Tim, if you see this - I feel like I don't need to explain myself. You and I are no strangers to stalking each other. Also, call me!)